Life happens so fast. So, so fast. There are certain relationships and situations and things in your life that you believe with all of your heart are going to last forever. And if you were to ever lose whatever it was, you would physically be unable to live or breathe. But then, all of a sudden, a moment happens where you realize you have been here before. There are moments and realizations that go on throughout your life that sort of shock you, like a voltage, to let you know that something is bound to happen. Either a change is coming, something is ending, something is beginning, whatever it may be. Moments of realization that for just a minute, even maybe a second, your world is thrown off, and you comprehend what is truly going on around you. Moments of clarity. The ugly truth comes out, raw honest emotions surface, and you realize. You realize you are chasing a dream that isn't yours. You realize that your passion is not what you are pursuing. You realize that you are not attracted to your high school boyfriend anymore. The "love of your life." You realize qualities about yourself that you despise. You realize that you are in love with your best friend. That you have always been in love with them. You realize the meaning of the word timing. You realize that another person has such an effect on you that they make you want to stall. They make you want to stay right where you are, in that moment, forever, with them. You realize that you didn't know how fast you were running, and just how deep you were diving, and now you are at a stop road. Now you must face reality. You must come to terms with what you have always known deep down in the depths of your heart. You ignore all of the insecurities, and doubts, and reason. Moments happen and you're struck. You realize. You acknowledge. You accept. And then in a flash, the moment is gone, and you go about your daily life. Back to the silence of the unknown. Back to the doubt. Back to the maybe's and what ifs. Back to biting your tongue. For now.
