https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lo3lxS-6joY
this might be the most beautiful song i've ever heard. i haven't been on my music game lately but the times i have a fucking minute of free time to listen to new shit is my favorite time of day. troye sivan is actually amazing. definitely worth a listen. he's been on more than repeat. i think i have a crush on him. gay, shmay.
holidays 2015. why is time going by so fast? i think this was the best year of my life. best i've had in a while that's for sure. so much work. possibilities. opportunities. it feels so good. new things. old things. i need to start reading more. i used to read so much, like all the time. resolution? ha.
i've been making a lot of things happen for myself lately, simply by asking for them. universe is on my side. thank god. i wish it was colder outside, this rain and heat is unbearable. it feels so. fucking. good to be able to drive again. is it so bad that i just want it to be cold out so i can roll my window down and smoke a cigarette with the cold? watch myself blow out the smoke into the wind?
i love to cry sometimes. i really am happy! things are good. but i love to cry. i love to listen to music and end up in tears. i love to watch things and end up in tears. wet cheeks, hard to breathe. so inspired. craving dance. craving movement. craving sex. i need to have more sex. i need to be touched more. i need to be kissed more. i need to be tasted more. i miss it. i want it. i need to write more. i need to feel.
i wonder what the soundtrack of who i am would be.
i think about that all the time.
