solitary

I'm sorry about all the thoughts that float around in my mind yearning to come out of my stubborn mouth, that i know i should say. And i'm sorry for still wanting you at random times, i'm sure it gets annoying. I'm also sorry for judging you and thinking bad things about you in my mind, i didn't mean it. I'm sorry i haven't given you back your clothes yet, but i can't allow you to take anything else from me. You took a piece of me with you when you turned your back, and you took some of my respect for you the day of my stepdad's death. You didn't have the heart to pick up the phone. I'm sorry about not dancing completely full out everytime i dance, i know i should. I'm sorry for only wanting to listen to music in the car, and not your complaints. I'm sorry i don't keep in touch more. I'm sorry for taking moments in my day for granted. However, I'm not sorry for my dreams. And i'm definitely not sorry for my goals. I'm not sorry i didn't love you as much as you loved me, and i'm not sorry you felt heartache for once. I'm not sorry that i am a damn good dancer, cause i worked hard to be where i am. I'm not sorry that i sometimes forget little things and that i don't always listen because i often think my thoughts are more brilliant than yours. And i'm not sorry about that. Because i'm also not sorry for living by my own rules and doing things my way. You can be aware that ive made mistakes that i deserve to feel sorry for, but don't you ever tell me that i owe you any sort of an apology. Because i will never apologize for my opinions. And in my opinion, you got what you deserve.

shiver

Cause the cold makes me think of you and when i look at old pictures i feel empty. And cause we are supposed to be together we always have been meant to be together and you won't answer the fucking phone. I get it, i hurt you worse than anyone will ever hurt you in your life. but answer the phone. you disappoint me now, and i feel you are different. i watch you live your life without me and you don't even know it. I used to not think about you and now i do. I used to think nothing but negative thoughts when your name came around but now its changed. i think of the good times, for the first time in years. i feel like i'm dreaming. and i wish i could feel you and what you're thinking again. because i can't anymore. you're different. and you're mean and you're bitter and you're stubborn. i'm getting impatient waiting to see your number pop up on my inbox. and these lyrics in my head need to fade.